I’m just like,
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Many people ask why I’m single, I tell ‘em it takes a real nigga to phase me, wanna avoid how I keep stumbling on these little ass immature bitch niggas that play me, I aint tryna be fuckin lazy, Im tryna STOP chasing these guys that drive me crazy, CRAZY cuz their fuckin image and memory stays in my head like a pasty, like I need a fuckin magician to come out and make nostalgia disappear in a hasty, Like POOF, VAMOOSE SONOFABITCHHH, like Jay says and then its allllll good and swazey.
Cuz Im tired of the lies, and the wide eyes when I step in a room, and I ain’t with them cuz its YOU where I want to be at, but they AIN’T you and they HATE, and their mouths pour with lies about me, their 2 cent comments don’t cost you anything, but its done more damage than you’ll ever know to ME, it pushes us away from what was meant to be.
You’ll never realize it cuz im me and NOT you.
TIRED of the fuckin regrets, tired of the disrespect, made me realize it when its just too damn late, made me hate…made me concentrate, on the fact that I allowed myself to go through this fuckin stage, where the spotlights on me and I play the fool as you slowly walk away into the audience, and you’ve taken away the mic, and im just left with a voice that NEVER had a choice, left with nothing not even a trace of a CARE, and now they all looking at me and stare, and I’m wondering why Im standing here alone, about to sing a love song, even though its so wrong….and I wanna laugh but all that comes out is tears, cuz I was never there, and you were never really here.
My fear is for you to be near…to be close enough to touch, so that I can grasp it all within my reach, but sadly I always get to the point where its too much, and you walk away then fuckin RUN from my clutch. It’s losing you cuz I’ve given up my TRUST, so easily like a diamond in the rough, cuz its hard but chance after chance I try to make it work out again, to play it off like everything’s okay, when it clearly is not. “It is what it is” they all say, but to lose control to a guy is the WORST in every way. They say “That’s how you know when you’ve found your match,” I say fuck that and KISS MY BLACK ASS!
Cuz the game is unfair and winning is everything but its not when you lose, and you lose when you win, no matter what. They say “You can’t have your cake and eat it too,” and boy that’s the fuckin truth, cuz when the table turns SHIT IS ON YOU, and those crumbs from your face full of cake that lay around there on that MESS you create, my bitch Karma will smack you right round and turn your life upside down, leave you begging til you have a fuckin meltdown…then maybe you can WAKE UP and see, through my vision of what you did to me.
Many people ask me why I’m single, I smile at them and say why not? Tell them to find me a guy that’s gonna PLEASE, tell them to find someone that will truly appreciate me, give me all that I need, get to know me and not play that stupid game…of expecting something but giving NOTHING, someone that lasts and not just in bed, but a ride-or-die boo that’ll have my back no matter what, so when those bitches come hating he’ll be staying, with that confident swag like OHHH YEAH, make me laugh til I ache, be straight up so I know what’s at stake, never make my heart fuckin break, give me that natural high til I elevate, with his motivation and intelligence, with a LOVE for MUSIC and some common sense…not to fuck with me the wrong way, and have a kind heart full of passion that may, one day be filled with memories, of each other. Most importantly, I need a guy on my level, that can handle this sexiness and craziness entirely, this humble, loving, loyal, and inspirational woman that IS ME, who is mature and can stay grounded despite what life throws at them. I tell him that will be the day that I find a guy and when I do like Kanye ima say “That shit CRAY.”
-LoveStoned
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